you know it's finals week when..

is it really any surprise that i have a comprehensive exam tomorrow morning at 8 am,

and for the past 3-4 hours i have found literally every excuse to not study, like..at all?

negatory.

however, i have been productive in a few other departments over the past couple of long, and grueling hours..

shall we go in order of occurrence?

• spent some needed quality time with myself in the shower, razoring away at already shaved legs and wasting Dove conditioner (which i now am out of and have to buy).
• grocery shop with money i actually do not currently have
  (so long debit account..)
• engorge myself in the fbook as well as the adorable puppy videos that happen to grace the top of my news feed.
• successfully remove all existing nail polish, and proceed to repaint both my fingernails and toenails, complete with a sparkly top coat as well as a rapid dry top coat.
• text the boyfriend for some helpful tips on motivation.

i think it's safe to say i haven't been studying for this final..

so here i sit,

freshly showered and with a stomach gorged on cheap tortilla chips and spinach dip that i really shouldn't have bought,
exhausting my last effort before the last 4-5 hour (tops) crackdown,
followed by a good two hours of useless sleep.

so, if you happen to be one of those sad excuses of a college student,
 who we all know is quietly suffering alone in your apartment, dreading what you know you really can't avoid any longer,

here's a little something to distract you for a good 59 seconds.

omggaaaaawwwwshhhhh so cuuuuute :)))

okay. now get back to work.

wishmeluck! <3

xoxo.

jff (aka. just for fun.)

this is what i look like today.

i am so bored.

funny how i have nothing interesting to blog about?

i'm listening to john mayer on repeat.

am i avoiding homework?

it's possible. 

i bet you thought that was interesting enough.

i'll provide a better update soon.

also thanksgiving is coming up.

so in the spirit of thanksgiving,

i present to you my good friends.

i'll be spending turkey day with these little buggers :)

it's gonna be a good time i just know it.

xoxo.

the power went out tonight.

so now i live in an apartment. 

it's a good time.

except for the fact that you could say my room,
which really isn't a room,
is actually a sauna.

lucky for me they make fans for that sort of thing.

and just in case you were wondering,

i've noticed that this kitchen hasn't experienced the baking sensation yet.

i'll be getting on that shortly.

xoxo.

already?

hello fall semester!

i start school again tomorrow.

college round two.

this is how i feel about it.

on a brighter note, 

this is my new backpack!

no more insults from random college-goers.

i have a feeling this backpack might improve my self-esteem,

not destroy it.

one more thing.

the other day, this girl took some pictures of me.

my oh my.

she's a lovely lady and boy, is she talented.

follow miss alex saxton's photography blog here and set up an appointment.

i know she would just love to take your picture.

xoxo.

strawberry swing.

so here i sit.

once again, at a ridiculously late hour, 4:00 a.m. to be exact.

the only difference between this time and every time before is that i don't have somewhere to be tomorrow,

and that somewhere being class.

summersummersummer

is FINALLY here :)

it's about time if you were to ask me.

however,

the seasons seem to be a bit confused this time around.

i have a feeling we'll be skipping right over spring during 2011.

a short list of things i will be doing over the next few lovely summer months:

- traveling to ye old san franciso with a small group of people from the church i've been attending. can't. wait.

- traveling with the fambam to beautiful mexico. cabo san lucas to be preeecise. kenz is coming with us :) i love when i'm allowed to invite friends.

- house hunting!

- enjoying myself.

yeah.

it is about damn time.

dedications:

to my freshman year of college: you had your ups and downs, 

but i can't wait to see what you've got up your sleeve for next year.

let's try to keep the majority of it on the positive side.

xoxo.

the best friend and me.

today is one of those lazy days.

but actually, this whole month has been a lazy day.

hi. it's only march fifth. let's not have a repeat of lazy february.

paul is home for spring break and is spending about 5 days with me up at the university.

today we went grocery shopping and rented the preeetty funny movie Due Date.

for some reason, i think funny movies are usually just better in the theater.

paul is afraid of downtown, so i don't know what our plan is for the evening yet.

but i ate a chicken pot pie, and puked it up.

so that was cool.

hey lazy day/lazy months.

let's get it together.

puking excluded.

dead-uh-kay-sean:

Paulmz: let's stop being boring. i love you :)

rock me mama like a wagon wheel.

this paper isn't going to get written. 

college is honestly wearing me out these days. it's time for a break.

a much needed break. 

THANKSgiving. thank you for the break. that is why i am giving thanks this year.

i'm ready to escape to vegas for 4 days this thursday.

how i do enjoy the old vegas. 

it was a weary day today.

it's snowy.

i hope there's no snow in vegas.

it's alright from indoors i suppose.

i suppose the white blanket can be appealing when i'm not trampling all over it.

apparently i'm just confused.

i've turned my room into a sauna so the chill from outside won't creep through my window.

walk into my room and you'll pass through a wall of heat.

my roommates think i'm crazy:)

so instead of writing my paper tonight, 

i've succeeded in repainting both my finger & toenails, made a bowl of mashed potatoes (and a turkey sandwich to compliment it), sipped on hot cocoa, and vented to kenz about stupid shit.

this paper isn't going to get written.

oh. did i mention i'm cursed?

i am. totally. i totally am.

ask me how much of this 7-9 pg paper i've written.

actually, don't ask.

because it's too much of an embarrassment and i don't want to talk about it, okay?

mel and i uploaded more youtube vids.

one of them has become semi-famous i suppose you could say at a whopping

293 views!!! (and counting.)

we super love our biggest fans.

especially the ones who tell us to dance in somethin a little tighter,

like panties. or bikinis.

thanks for your creeper messages. 

don't worry, we definitely User Blocked you suckers.

next big thing. i'm tellin ya.

we're gonna be on ellen. and dr. phil.

maybe we'll make t-shirts. any requests?

well-

this paper isn't going to get written.

sooo..

DEAD-EE-KAY-SHUNS:

- to the pilgrims and the indians: thanks for existing so i can have a few extra days of school off.

- to the paper: go to hell.

wanna see something funny?

then watch this.

an update.

i must say, i deeply apologize for my lack of attentiveness in the blog department. you know college, it will grab hold of you with its claws of craziness and swing you around in circles until you feel like you're going to hurl. and when it finally sets you back down after about two or three weeks of straight nausea and adjusting to the dizziness, it can take you a moment or two to find some natural balance in your life again. however, i can proudly say that i've successfully found it (for the most part). of course, i still have issues i need to adjust. for example, i still can't get into the habit of studying. mom/dad, if you're reading this, rest assured that your college investments aren't going to waste. i'm doing a good job of working things out, and finding the time to get in everything that needs to be done. i have a feeling my marks won't disappoint (or that's what i hope..) but thanks for believing me when i tell you i have everything under control..even though i usually don't..and always being there to help me with anything at anytime. you guys are truly the bees knees. a few other updates. over the past few weeks i have traded and given away (or had snatched off my wrist) many of my colorful silly bands. the man who i stalked and placed pictures all over the internet of found me on facebook (do not ask me how, i was too afraid to ask him myself) which was most likely the most embarrassing moment of my life. i participated in a charity walk for NAMI (an organization which promotes research of mental illness and providing excellent rehab services), and have made a mess of my room over and over and over. my milk went sour once again, and i have painted my nails about 20 total times (and am currently not wearing any, due to the fact that i peeled it off in writing today. bad habit.) i spend the majority of my time over at the Kappa Sigma fraternity, and those boys are too incredible. have to give a little shout out to them. i love you all dearly. i eat a cheddar pull-apart from the pie about every two weeks, and that sugary ranch dressing adds quite the kick. oh, and my roomies and i are basically in love with each other:) it honestly couldn't be a better situation. i'm currently listening to john mayer, and living at ease, although i have a family studies midterm tomorrow morning which i may or may not be prepared for. all in all, college is truly amazing. it definitely throws a curveball at me every now and again (neighbors above me, whoever you are...i would prefer it if i didn't have to listen to your music with you. it's not that i don't like underground hip hop, i just can't hear myself think, that's all. turn it off, or at least a few notches lower. srsly.) love you college. see you tomorrow<3:)
shout outs:
- to my bf paula: i love our open relationship and miss you way more than anyone should. last weekend was mediocre. next time i see you, we're gonna bake...and i mean that.
- to my kappa sigma boys: i realize i already mentioned you previously, but i basically live at your house, and you don't make me pay for rent or any of your resources. i just love hangin with you guys. for realzies. thanks for always making me feel welcome and right at home. you guys are the tits:)
- to my professors: i'm sorry for peeling my nail polish off and leaving it under your desks..i realize it creates a mess. i promise, it's a habit i'm trying to break. (oh, and professor kaufman, sorry my paper sucks. alright, that's all.)
- to bre: thanks for friday visits:) college is better than i could have ever imagined, and i'm so glad to have you right here, next door to me at our good friend Westminny. love you chummet<3
- to mom and dad: you're my mom and dad. so of course you get a dedication. duh. love you guys:) tell marshall and the pupps i say hey. i miss them so much.

til we meet again fellow bloggers. ciao.

1 + 2= 12. yes. check.

college has proven to be many things so far. informative, confusing, terrifying, testing, awesome, lonely..just to name a few. my first week on my own was chalk full of ups & downs. for example, losing my Ucard and key to my room on the second day of classes was truly excellent. really. loved it. thank you housing office for making it apparent that i am an idiot. i realize this. however, thank you also for helping me fill out a meal verification card so i don't starve, giving me a temporary key and Ucard, and ordering a change of locks on every door in my dorm for the price of 60 big ones. you all are too fun, and i will be sure to never make that mistake again. on the other hand, i have also come across many great things this past week. i've run into old friends, made some amazing new friends, grocery shopped on my own, and learned some valuable lessons. already. it's been great. difficult, stressful, and weird, but nonetheless, great. i am definitely excited for the year to come. now for a few dedications.
to skype: thank you for keeping me in touch with my friends. i would perish without you.
to mom & dad: thank you for bringing up the puppies today and supplying me with everything i could ever need for the year ahead. oh and thanks for loving me. duh.
to all the food i bought this week: thank you for nurturing my body with your salty and sugary goodness. i am looking forward to all the extra pounds you have in store for me.
to the scented bamboo sitting on my shelf: every time i walk in my room and take in your citrusy goodness i just die.
to my incredibly big and ugly backpack: although i dislike you extremely so, i must admit you have done a great job of safely hauling my massive laptop and heavy books from class to class. however, try to be easier on the shoulders, or you will be seeing less and less of college campus.
to my amazing roomies: i love you all to death. even though your drunken friends are somewhat out of control, they still entertain me, and i love listening to your stories about their everyday nonsense. you all make me laugh hard, and i love it when you sit in my room with me and snack on my goodies:)
to all boys: grow up and turn into men. some things never change.
to the university shuttles: thank you for shipping me from place to place on a regular basis. my body would not survive without you.
to the college campus: good times are in store for us. i just know it.

acceptance.

the tears snuck up on me tonight. packing has begun.

currently: indifferent.

life is happening. and i don't have anything in boxes. i begin to move in one day. don't ask me why i have nothing packed. i couldn't tell ya. however, i do believe i could tell ya that one of the reasons i haven't boxed anything up yet it because somehow, i have myself convinced that if i don't do it, it's not happening. if i don't pack, i'm not leaving. sure, i'm stoked to begin a new chapter in my life up at the university. but do i have to do it away from my family? and my friends? and my dogs? because i'm the favorite, and my puppies need me. it's only 20 minutes away. but that's just not good enough. as for some of my closest friends? they're sailing a bit further. at least 2 hours further. i can't help but feel like a heartless bitch due to the fact that i haven't cried yet. i just don't think the reality has quite hit me. maybe that's why i haven't started packing. everyone around me is cramming in as many lunch dates and play times as humanly possible, and i sit with an open schedule. people are teary over goodbyes and good lucks, and at the end of each day, i never say goodbye. i never say good luck. not yet anyway. why should i? it's not happening. right? don't get me wrong, i would like to be slapped in the face by the cold, but oddly welcoming hand of 'here and now'. but it's just not happening for me. i'm not crying. i'm not packing. i suppose soon enough i'll have to start. the burning question lingers. will reality finally be accepted? stay tuned to find out.

oh, hey future.

i'm beginning to realize that everything is changing. like...seriously changing. i move out in less than 20 days, and some of my best friends are moving 2 hours away from me. i still don't think it's actually hit me. i haven't even gotten anything for my dorm yet, let alone picked a theme. everything's changing. i'm not usually the type of person who is accustomed to change. i mean, i already moved last september...i have to do this again? what a hassle. and it's weird. i'm going to have to get my act together and learn how to seriously study, study, study. i guess i am excited, yes. but i can't help but be a bit afraid of the change. things are going to change, whether i want them to or not. things will be uncomfortable. i am excited, yes. but still afraid. it's a new chapter. i hope i'm ready. i know my path has been set before me, but i'm realizing that i'm about to step up to the big leagues and seriously commit to it. looking forward to uncertain, but bright days ahead:)